I think I have officially reached the ‘writer’s block’ of my life. Sort of clueless with what’s happening and kind of still just going on with the flow. I happened to turn 29 a few days back n tat has just added to my misery. A clueless 29 yr old woman I hav turned into! 😊😊😂😂
For what its worth, belated happy birthday to me!How fast time flies…The other day I was chatting with my bestie when we got around discussing the past. A lot seemed to have happened in other ppl’s lives during the past 5-6 yrs, each of which maybe even those concerned ppl may not remember but my bestie and I do! Reason being ‘the subject matter ppl’ having all moved on in life with higher studies abroad or marriage n kids etc etc. Thats when I realised that I probably remember everything about everybody else in the past yrs because I havent progressed in my life. I continue to dwell in the past. A past where nobody exists but I. A past that sort of now has become the only driving force in my life due to good n intact memories. I wish to tell myself tonight ‘Hang in there’!😊
No!! Tats NOT a name of any new upcoming movie!
So ya basically i started this blog to track my life changes since i moved to the new city for my new job (which made me new girl!Duh!!)…and sumwhere down the line this blog sought off forgot this sole purpose and became about everything else 😂😂 No!! I m not complaining…i love sharing my senseless poems, pics, quotes,my views etc etc here but the truth is i have completed 514 days today in this new city and in my new job!!!Yay!!…(i think its tym to change my blogname to ‘oldgirlinoldcity’ 😂😂) And No!! I didnt manually calculate that…yup, there is an app for everything these days! 😂😂
But hey…which also makes this blog of mine 514 days old!! 😂😂
My journey here so far has been full of ups and downs…and frankly speaking there is a lot of Kochi i haven’t yet seen…! I will definitely try to travel more within the city…mostly these days its just work on weekdays and i go home on weekends (native place).Life is just going on..on and on…😊
Once again a big shout out to my loyal followers here (esp those that have followed me from the very start!)…Thank u n love all the interactions!…😘 Like this dialog i heared in the movie Kabhi Alvida Na Kehna-
Ajnabiyon ki baat sunn leni chahiye … kabhi kabhi ajnabi apno se zyada jaante hain!
A girl cannot be in her office floor alone on a weekend, a girl cannot be traveling in bus at night with a male friend, a girl cannot hang out with male friends in the park, a girl cannot wear jeans, a girl cannot go to church safely, a girl cannot travel in a train compartment all by her own, a girl cannot be returning home after work in a car alone at night…
What the fuck CAN a girl do in this country?!
My Lord and My God,
Take me back 3 years!
No more no less,
To close unfinished matters,
To never even start certain others,
To pursue my inner passion,
To mend some relations,
To be back with my bestie,
N Most of all to involve u more in my life this time around…
Is it really too much to ask?!
Oh Take me back 3 years,
My Lord and My God!
You’ve nailed it Kriti Sanon! Totally nailed it!
Better late than never!
I have always wanted to read the famous book ‘To Kill A Mockingbird’ published in the 1960s by Harper Lee right from my childhood…and so very recently I finally did. And I regretted not reading it earlier…
I was touched by so many lines in the book.Infact Atticus Finch is my role model for life. Thank you Harper Lee, I am sure it would have taken a lot of guts to publish this book addressing very serious social issues those days.The title cudnt have been more apt.What makes the book appealing is the innocence in it since it is narrated from a child’s perspective.
And for those of you who havent read it yet…pls do so now…I plead you to not procrastinate further 😊
Leaving you with a few quotes from this cult status book-
(Actually spent nearly 30 minutes staring at the title of this post , not knowing where or how to start….)
Is the title really that lame? Does it really sound stupid to actually sit n wait for divine intervention in one’s life?! I dont know really …but what I do know from past experiences is that it does work……well atleast eventually…so for me its kinda tried and tested!
And No I am not really that religious and like a lot of other people I shamelessly seem to remember God’s existence only and only when confronted with fear, doubt or grief. And for me to name this post with That title is taking the shamelessness to a whole different level!
But I do believe in ‘karma‘….but the whole ‘hanging in there‘ part is tough.Days when I think do I even have a purpose in this life? And then other days when I feel like just getting lost somewhere,Why do we even call ourselves free when there is actually really nothing ‘free‘ about this life?! Or atleast why does it seem so and why is it so difficult to cross that barrier n break free….? Yea…. so as you can see I do hit the ‘Writer’s block’ of my life quite often!
There is a nice meaningful dialogue in a Malayalam movie that I saw years back….and since then those lines have been etched in my memory.They are said by an old man in the movie.The lines translate to ‘Every event or hardship happening in our life currently may seem like a very big thing to us now but as the days go by…these past incidents become the different stories in the book of our life, Stories that we will think about, discuss and laugh about in the future’. So who knows perhaps there will even be a day when I will laugh about this very blog post!
I wish I knew the unknown….Till then let me be satisfied thinking, like the song goes…..’Are we all lost stars, trying to light up the dark?!’ …Are we??